How long had it been since he'd been reduced to frustrated tears? A long time, and he brought his hand up to scrub at his eyes, frustrated and angry and feeling his control slipping as he picked out all the ways Shisui was ignoring what he was saying for what he thought he was saying.
"Shisui, you've gone out of your way to hide the association. You never hid that you worked with Itachi. Don't compare it. Your training of her changes what would be her assignments, believe it or not. It's something that I, as the person giving assignments, needs to know. What if someone had found out and I didn't know Shisui? What if it was an enemy you had? Don't say I think everything is all about me when this isn't even about you. I gave you the chance to come to me because you were the one with the damn information. Not to make you stop, just to fucking tell me. It's a little thing that could have blown into a very big thing very easily. I didn't ask you to confide your feelings in me." He looked over at him, his natural eye crimson, the other dark, and tears in both.
"I didn't ask you to change, I asked you to make sure I know things I need to know. Yeah, I did damage to any relationship we could've had when I was a kid avoiding you to keep away from the people around you. One of the cousins that was always on your heels genjutsu'ed me once you know, ended up with me taking an unprepared dive down the stairs at one of the temples. Sorry I didn't want to share. It was hardly the only thing, and people in our age bracket were the worst of the lot. So, sorry if you took it personally, but it was never you, and by the time they went the hell away it was a little late and you'd decided I thought I was too good for you or something."
He waved his hand through the air as though brushing it off, looking away from him again as he scrubbed at his eyes. "So stop making it about me trying to get into your damn feelings, and stop treating me like I don't need to know anything. Because sorry. The fucking Hokage needs to fucking know what's going on with his shinobi."
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"Shisui, you've gone out of your way to hide the association. You never hid that you worked with Itachi. Don't compare it. Your training of her changes what would be her assignments, believe it or not. It's something that I, as the person giving assignments, needs to know. What if someone had found out and I didn't know Shisui? What if it was an enemy you had? Don't say I think everything is all about me when this isn't even about you. I gave you the chance to come to me because you were the one with the damn information. Not to make you stop, just to fucking tell me. It's a little thing that could have blown into a very big thing very easily. I didn't ask you to confide your feelings in me." He looked over at him, his natural eye crimson, the other dark, and tears in both.
"I didn't ask you to change, I asked you to make sure I know things I need to know. Yeah, I did damage to any relationship we could've had when I was a kid avoiding you to keep away from the people around you. One of the cousins that was always on your heels genjutsu'ed me once you know, ended up with me taking an unprepared dive down the stairs at one of the temples. Sorry I didn't want to share. It was hardly the only thing, and people in our age bracket were the worst of the lot. So, sorry if you took it personally, but it was never you, and by the time they went the hell away it was a little late and you'd decided I thought I was too good for you or something."
He waved his hand through the air as though brushing it off, looking away from him again as he scrubbed at his eyes. "So stop making it about me trying to get into your damn feelings, and stop treating me like I don't need to know anything. Because sorry. The fucking Hokage needs to fucking know what's going on with his shinobi."