"I'll have you know that we did carry out sessions in secret. Because it was nobody's fucking business to know." They had their own private little place where they did things together, Itachi and him.
"And no, it doesn't change a fucking thing! There is no fixed schedule to this so-called 'training'. You're making it sound so very official when it really isn't. And what if somebody found out? What if somebody found out?! What are they going to do about it? Nothing! If an enemy found out, they'll be running back to the hole where they came from because she is exceptionally talented and they ought to be running. It's a little thing that's as normal as a brother teaching his little sister; you're the one turning this into a big-ass deal!" Shisui's eyes were crimson as well, though none of his were holding back tears. He could punch him in the face for beginning to cry, too, because -- and he'd never say it out loud -- it was tugging on his heartstrings and he hated it.
"And stop fucking assuming that I assumed shit about you!" Okay, he was about ready to stand on that rooftop, fists clenched in his lap as it were. "Sorry that I didn't want to share; sorry you took it personally; sorry this sorry that. Fuck you! You get this right! I never assumed you were too good for me. And it's your goddamned fault you made it look like I had done something wrong to you."
He was beyond frustrated that he wasn't getting through to the damn Hokage. "I apologize for not telling you certain details about the mission, and I swear to you that it won't happen again. In that matter I take full responsibility and your admonishment is warranted. Hell, I was expecting a punishment; and I'd gladly take that too. But I still stand by the fact that training with Sakura is none of your damn business. Don't assume I'm an idiot on top of all the other assumptions you have going on for me. I've done this before and I know what I'm doing. The Hokage doesn't need to know every fucking thing his shinobi do, especially if it's in no way harmful to the village they serve. A Hokage ought to know his shinobi well enough to trust that they wouldn't be doing something like plotting to bring the village down. And you, as Hokage, only have a pile of assumptions to describe me. I'm not surprised that you would even choose to react so."
He only paused to breathe, carrying on soon after he'd sucked in that next breath: "And for the record, I've always cared about you, even if I don't seem to outwardly show it." Shisui stood, stepping away from the edge of the roof so there wasn't any room for accidents-- like a loose tile. "If I didn't, I wouldn't have been the only one in our fucking clan demanding that somebody go back to fetch you."
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"And no, it doesn't change a fucking thing! There is no fixed schedule to this so-called 'training'. You're making it sound so very official when it really isn't. And what if somebody found out? What if somebody found out?! What are they going to do about it? Nothing! If an enemy found out, they'll be running back to the hole where they came from because she is exceptionally talented and they ought to be running. It's a little thing that's as normal as a brother teaching his little sister; you're the one turning this into a big-ass deal!" Shisui's eyes were crimson as well, though none of his were holding back tears. He could punch him in the face for beginning to cry, too, because -- and he'd never say it out loud -- it was tugging on his heartstrings and he hated it.
"And stop fucking assuming that I assumed shit about you!" Okay, he was about ready to stand on that rooftop, fists clenched in his lap as it were. "Sorry that I didn't want to share; sorry you took it personally; sorry this sorry that. Fuck you! You get this right! I never assumed you were too good for me. And it's your goddamned fault you made it look like I had done something wrong to you."
He was beyond frustrated that he wasn't getting through to the damn Hokage. "I apologize for not telling you certain details about the mission, and I swear to you that it won't happen again. In that matter I take full responsibility and your admonishment is warranted. Hell, I was expecting a punishment; and I'd gladly take that too. But I still stand by the fact that training with Sakura is none of your damn business. Don't assume I'm an idiot on top of all the other assumptions you have going on for me. I've done this before and I know what I'm doing. The Hokage doesn't need to know every fucking thing his shinobi do, especially if it's in no way harmful to the village they serve. A Hokage ought to know his shinobi well enough to trust that they wouldn't be doing something like plotting to bring the village down. And you, as Hokage, only have a pile of assumptions to describe me. I'm not surprised that you would even choose to react so."
He only paused to breathe, carrying on soon after he'd sucked in that next breath: "And for the record, I've always cared about you, even if I don't seem to outwardly show it." Shisui stood, stepping away from the edge of the roof so there wasn't any room for accidents-- like a loose tile. "If I didn't, I wouldn't have been the only one in our fucking clan demanding that somebody go back to fetch you."
When you fell. Under that goddamned rock.
You idiot.
I would never let you down.