Kakashi sat away from Obito, keeping his distance to keep the matter strict and formal, but not so far that he seemed cold and uncaring. That was the last thing he wanted. He passed his gaze over his tired almost withered-looking friend, and sighed before he averted his eyes to think carefully about what to say next. This was going to be difficult.
"I went to talk to Gai a few days ago, to see what his take on all this was. I wanted him to understand how I'm feeling, and maybe help me to understand the same, and what I can do about it." He wasn't sure why, but it felt important to Kakashi that Obito knew this, regardless of the fact that the other man was probably well aware that Gai was eventually Kakashi's most comfortable go-to when he wanted to talk about his feelings. Perhaps it showed that Kakashi was learning, that he was putting his days of bottling up his emotions and hiding behind walls, that he was at the very least trying.
"I... should start with a few apologies," he told a spot on Obito's floor, his voice low and careful but by no means was it quiet. "Firstly for the way I treated you after I got back from Uzushio. Avoiding you, being skittish, being vague.. I know it wasn't what you expected, and it definitely wasn't what you deserved. So, I'm sorry for that."
He looked at Obito then, eyes defiant but definitely not hardened by anything other than honesty.
"But I can't apologize for the last few weeks. Like I said when we talked before, I'm not angry with you. That's true even more so now that I've had a little space, but at the time I just-... I just lost it. Your timing couldn't have been worse; everything had accumulated to a peak and just when I thought everything was getting a little more simple in my head, you dropped a bomb shell on me." He balled his fists slightly against the feeling of dread already settling in the pit of his stomach with every word he spoke, terrified that this conversation might prove successful in clearing the air as to Kakashi's feelings, but in doing so might make Obito worse.. He had to make sure the man understood, properly.
"You are much too important to me to just throw away on a mistake that happened years ago, Obito. Loyalty and trust goes both ways, and regardless of what trust you broke with me, my loyalty to you still stands - that won't ever break. I was hurt, you made a mistake not telling me, but I can understand now why you did it. I needed this time to get my head on straight, to understand what I want and what I need to say to you. Yes, I didn't talk to you, but don't ever think that I was happy about it.."
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"I went to talk to Gai a few days ago, to see what his take on all this was. I wanted him to understand how I'm feeling, and maybe help me to understand the same, and what I can do about it." He wasn't sure why, but it felt important to Kakashi that Obito knew this, regardless of the fact that the other man was probably well aware that Gai was eventually Kakashi's most comfortable go-to when he wanted to talk about his feelings. Perhaps it showed that Kakashi was learning, that he was putting his days of bottling up his emotions and hiding behind walls, that he was at the very least trying.
"I... should start with a few apologies," he told a spot on Obito's floor, his voice low and careful but by no means was it quiet. "Firstly for the way I treated you after I got back from Uzushio. Avoiding you, being skittish, being vague.. I know it wasn't what you expected, and it definitely wasn't what you deserved. So, I'm sorry for that."
He looked at Obito then, eyes defiant but definitely not hardened by anything other than honesty.
"But I can't apologize for the last few weeks. Like I said when we talked before, I'm not angry with you. That's true even more so now that I've had a little space, but at the time I just-... I just lost it. Your timing couldn't have been worse; everything had accumulated to a peak and just when I thought everything was getting a little more simple in my head, you dropped a bomb shell on me." He balled his fists slightly against the feeling of dread already settling in the pit of his stomach with every word he spoke, terrified that this conversation might prove successful in clearing the air as to Kakashi's feelings, but in doing so might make Obito worse.. He had to make sure the man understood, properly.
"You are much too important to me to just throw away on a mistake that happened years ago, Obito. Loyalty and trust goes both ways, and regardless of what trust you broke with me, my loyalty to you still stands - that won't ever break. I was hurt, you made a mistake not telling me, but I can understand now why you did it. I needed this time to get my head on straight, to understand what I want and what I need to say to you. Yes, I didn't talk to you, but don't ever think that I was happy about it.."